ermm ... read alison's blog ^_~ ... same as u , i'm the second child ... i dun hav any younger bro or wat but i hav a older sis ...

its soo damit obvious that my parents are caring more for her then me ... erm ... maybe that they tink i can be independent ?? i dun noe ... they tink they REALLY undersatnd mi alot ... well they DUN ... ok .... sumtimes when some ting happens and is not fair , i understand that parents sumtimes oso got probs, like buy for tis oso mux buy for the other one ...
i understand ... but all tis already made mi feel sad u noe .... of course i noe sumtimes my sis oso felt that i'm better cox i got gd things better than her ... well ... the tings i hav is the tings that i earn ... that i earn frm my results ... SO for fair and unfairness ... i am already damn pissed off .... worst , she has attitude prob .... a little ting scold scold scold ... sumtimes i really can't take it anymore ... i'm tire of crying .... i hate crying now ...

well .... maybe sumtimes i said in my blog i hate my parents , but do i realli hate them ??? i can't ... but i really can't find any happiness when i'm with them ... to me , the onli ting that will pull mi and my parents together is $$$ money $$$ .... when they give me money then i will be happy ... if they suddenly say "i love u" ... siao !!! i will damnit freak out !!! i can't take it de .. haha ... well .... i dun noe whether u watch "i'm not stupid too" .... erm ..... my life is sumting like tat but not that worst la .... onli is that i remember the last time my parents realli praised me is when i was .. er... when ? ... er.... i dun noe ... but i can confrim with u is not in the pass few yrs of my sec sch life .... hmm ... maybe tat is oso one of that bah ....

even though sumtimes my parents show concern to mi .... i'm like numb ... i can't feel anyting already .... but why am i numb ??? i dun noe ... all the bad tings they did to mi jux flow out when i see them in their eyes ... and worst , i dun feel like even noeing that they r concern of me ... i jus love living my own life ... erm ... where they jux provide me with everyting ... then i jux live on like tat ... too bad i'm the second one ??? ok ... maybe they do adore mi in their heart ... but hw am i suppose to noe when they dun hav any action at all .. where else for my sis ... -.- ..... hai .. dun feel like toking ...

parents will say that their children have probs .. well ... u canot blAme all on them rite ??? blame the society !!! why is it soo gd that ppl are asking for more ?? and this cause the naughtyness of us ??

luky !!! i got my frens ... ^_^.... that time when i went out with them to east coast , that was my happiest day of my sec sch life !!!! when i reach hm , i saw my parents ... then iw as tinking .. hw long has it been snice i enjoyed goin out with them ??? but i can comfrim with u that i am realli MUCH MORE happier with my friends then my parents !!!! MUCH MORE !!! and i enjoyed every minute and seconds with them !! ^___^

sum ppl do realli tink that i get watever i wan ... everyting i wan is always related to my results .... i am like studying for my parents so to get theitngs i wan ... ok .. bks .. u noe y ??? cox they r realted to studies ... get it ??? .... they neva ever buy things that is not related to studies FREE ... or buy for mi if i reach my target of results .... all these ?!!! i felt ..... i felt ... .... :x ..... hai ....